I turned 50 on August 6, 2015. I’m afraid I won’t be around to hit 60 if I keep gaining weight the way I have been.
I went through a crippling divorce in 2010 and during that time, I hit complete bottom and was even suicidal. As I clawed my way up from that abyss, I realized that if I was going to survive, I had to prioritize and compartmentalize my life. I have a wicked case of ADD, but I can laser focus on one thing at a time.
So, my first priority was my financial health. I was unemployed at the time, so finding a good job (with good benefits) and then working my way up and/or putting in enough overtime so that I could keep a roof over the head of myself and my kids was my first priority. I’ve done that.
My second priority was my emotional health. I keep starting the next sentence as, “I’ve learned…” but the truth is that this is an ongoing journey. I no longer have constant anxiety attacks. I no longer suffer from PTSD. My episodes of depression are much less frequent and much less severe. I’d like to think that I’m no longer passive aggressive but I’m not sure I’m qualified to judge myself on that issue. In short, I’m a much happier (and hopefully better adjusted) person than I was before.
My third priority is my physical health….and here I am. I got a fitbit and new scale for myself just before my birthday. My starting weight was 188.4 lbs. I started walking. I got down as low as 270.3 lbs. But that weight was a one-time fluke and even if it hadn’t been, the only real changes I had made were a slightly increased awareness of the caloric values of foods and a few extra steps a day.
On Monday, September 21, 2015 I fell off my feet and fractured my left ankle. It’s been almost 5 weeks and it’s healing nicely (for a fat woman in her 50s). But I’ve learned a lesson through this experience, and that is that just walking will not get me healthier if I’m still eating the same crap that got me to this point in the first place.
Back in April of this year, I saw an article on Penn Jillette (of Penn and Teller) and how he lost 105 lbs in 100 days. I looked at some of the info on the Eat to Live diet by Dr. Joel Fuhrman and contemplated getting the book. But contemplation is as far as I got.
Then, recently, one of my best friends decided to try the Eat to Live approach to nutrition and health and I watched to see how it went for him. (I got the idea to keep a separate page for this type of stuff from him as well). Today he posted his 6 week weigh-in and he’s lost 24.4 lbs in that time. Sign me up!
So I’m reading the book now, have ordered food for the next 4 days (I’m ordering online and picking up on the way home from work due to the ankle at the moment), and I started a Facebook page devoted to these efforts. The picture of me there was taken a month ago but pretty accurately reflects my size. It’s one of the before pictures from when I cut off all my hair (shaved down to .25″) so I thought it would be cool to use the pic of my hair long and then I’ll get to see it growing out back to what it was while hopefully watching the rest of me get smaller.
Most of the posts on the page from here on out will be weigh-ins, or about food choices, or exercise, or other related stuff, so I created it to keep this info in one place and out of my regular feed. So if this isn’t your thing, no worries.
If you want to join me, I’d be glad for the company.